the drunk

has spent his young life
not believing his
family
is his family.
drinks
smokes
destroys himself
trying to see
if they’ll give him up.

they don’t

so he drinks smokes
destroys
some more

they still keep him

they
keep believing
he’ll see the light

hit the bottom

but
see the light-

he doesn’t.

instead he keeps going deeper and deeper
into his illusions
and as he goes deeper
he forgets the initial purpose
and soon falls
victim to his own
smoking
drinking
and destruction

now he can’t admit
he’s
a drunk

he’s an addict

that
he’s come close to destroying himself
his
loved ones.
.
.
.

instead he’s become
the typical story of a
drunk

of an addict

of self-destruction

his initial theory
his initial science project
his initial rebellion

has rebelled against him.

now it’s a lifestyle choice
expecting family will still be there to give him
what he requires
without any repercussion

and for the most part – they are

problem is

his drinking
his smoking
his own destruction

is destroying them

they’re dying slowly in anguish.

but that’s not his fault
instead his childhood experiment
is coming true

and soon he will be all alone
not because family abandoned
him

but

because he abandoned
them.

yet

he still doesn’t see it

instead

that’s just one more injustice
the world will put against him.

and he’ll walk the streets alone
with no door to call his own
to
close behind him each night
and sleep in
safety
.
.
.

solitude.

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About Crazy Irishman

Touted as a working man's poet, Martin Durkin has been writing professionally for the last 12 years. He has appeared in over twenty anthologies across North America, including, "And left a place to stand on", a collection of poems and essays about the late great Al Purdy. Durkin has also published two collections of poetry, "Hypnotic Childhood", and "The Sound of Quish". Over the past 4 years, Durkin has been on hiatus for the most part but has recently come back to the poetry scene creating a poetry site called crazyirishman.wordpress.com, where in the past year he has written over 100 poems and created a cross over page on https://www.facebook.com/crazyirishmanpoetry where he gives a story behind each of the pieces written. View all posts by Crazy Irishman

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