the kind of woman who can’t afford a rooming house
but finds herself at yours
at Uncle Buks’
either at 3 in the morning
or
3 in the afternoon
both times you’re trying to
read
write
stay sober-drunk
and everyone is pounding the walls
the ceiling
floorboards
yelling
‘CAN YOU GET ANY LOUDER IN THERE’
‘BAD ENOUGH WE GOT YOU
GET RID OF ‘ER’
but you can’t
get rid of her
she’s a bad memory
she’s locust
a pure shot of what you ({[don’t]}) need
and it’s too hot
it’s summer
it’s inhospitable
and rude
what would Chinaski say
not
WWJD
besides – you say
she’s sitting on the windowsill ledge
and the drapes are drawn
closing out the sun
the stars
and the fan is propped up trying to
suck in cool air
or suck out the heat
and she’s just sitting there
in a wife beater
tall socks
and roller girl shorts
she’s got her way of showing
without showing
everything your mind wants to feel rotten
and you stand so she can see you’re impressed
letting her know
she’s not going to be kicked out by you
you shuffle around the typewriter
and into the kitchen
you grab more ice and another glass
you don’t want to share
but you know she’ll let you bum a smoke
.
.
.
you’re back in the living room
even though you know
this ain’t
living
and she’s sitting on the couch
tapping on your typewriter
tapping on your coffee table
that empty hydro line spool with the perfect holes
for holding styrofoam cups
and she grins a cock roach smile
circling the hole
the drain
says
‘ PUT THE CUP DOWN AND POUR’
so you pour
and the night
or the day
the middle of the clock
ticks on
and life wasted
continues to amuse you in ways
that only you can appreciate
.
.
.
she leaves at a point where your
self awareness is on its hands
either 6:30
or 12:00
either
or
both hands have been round full in this rooming house
as she closes the door
her high heels clicking
down the hall
back into the wilderness of
a Bukowski strip
knowing both debauchery
and understanding beauty
in all it’s ugliness
and flower perfume forms.